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<journal-id journal-id-type="issn">2513-8421</journal-id>
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<journal-title>Journal of Embodied Research</journal-title>
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<subject>Video article</subject>
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<article-title>Three Illuminated Videos</article-title>
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<contrib-id contrib-id-type="orcid">https://orcid.org/0000-0002-4395-5670</contrib-id>
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<surname>Barrett</surname>
<given-names>Kyle</given-names>
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<email>b.spatz@hud.ac.uk</email>
<xref ref-type="aff" rid="aff-1">1</xref>
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<name>
<surname>Krawczyk</surname>
<given-names>Ilona</given-names>
</name>
<xref ref-type="aff" rid="aff-2">2</xref>
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<surname>Cederblad</surname>
<given-names>Charlotta Grimfjord</given-names>
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<xref ref-type="aff" rid="aff-3">3</xref>
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<aff id="aff-1"><label>1</label>University of Waikato, Aotearoa, NZ</aff>
<aff id="aff-2"><label>2</label>University of Huddersfield, UK</aff>
<aff id="aff-3"><label>3</label>Independent Researcher</aff>
<pub-date publication-format="electronic" date-type="pub" iso-8601-date="2021-10-11">
<day>11</day>
<month>10</month>
<year>2021</year>
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<year>2021</year>
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<volume>4</volume>
<issue>2</issue>
<elocation-id>3 (29:33)</elocation-id>
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<date date-type="received" iso-8601-date="2021-07-24">
<day>24</day>
<month>07</month>
<year>2021</year>
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<day>24</day>
<month>07</month>
<year>2021</year>
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<p>Kyle Barrett, &#8220;Illuminated: Antisyzygy&#8221; (8:40) &#8212; Blending film and painting, the video postulates several questions arising from the COVID-19 pandemic via the notion of &#8220;antisyzygy&#8221; or the in-between state in which, globally, society has found itself. Ilona Krawczyk, &#8220;More than one voice&#8221; (10:00) &#8212; Why do I feel connected to something which is beyond me, which comes from the past, which I don&#8217;t understand? But there are those moments of unconsciousness that come out. Charlotta Grimfjord Cederblad, &#8220;Preparation&#8221; (10:17) &#8212; This video is an observation of what we prepare for when we prepare for performance, of how we prepare for the fact that we soon will be watched, of how we imagine that we are being watched and of what happens with the body when we think that no one is watching.</p>
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<kwd>Screen Production Research</kwd>
<kwd>embodied Practice</kwd>
<kwd>Scotland</kwd>
<kwd>Aotearoa</kwd>
<kwd>Deleuze</kwd>
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<p>[00:10]</p>
<p><italic>JER</italic> 4(2): 3 &#8212; &#8220;Three Illuminated Videos&#8221; (29:33)</p>
<p>Kyle Barrett (8:40)</p>
<p>&#8220;Illuminated: Antisyzygy&#8221;</p>
<p>Ilona Krawczyk (10:00)</p>
<p>&#8220;More than one voice&#8221;</p>
<p>Charlotta Grimfjord Cederblad (10:17)</p>
<p>&#8220;Preparation&#8221;</p>
<p>[00:20]</p>
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<p><bold>Illuminated: Antisyzygy</bold></p>
<p><bold>Dr. Kyle Barrett</bold></p>
<p><italic>Abstract</italic></p>
<p>In the realms of Screen Production Research (SPR), an emerging field within the academy, filmmaking can be seen as &#8220;a parasitic creative practice, a hybrid medium that takes from and incorporates many other forms of expression&#8221; (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B1">Berkeley 2018: 31</xref>). It is within this &#8220;parasitic&#8221; notion that I wish to contextualise the video article.</p>
<p>Blending film and painting, the video postulates several questions arising from the COVID-19 pandemic. This project explores the notion of &#8220;antisyzygy&#8221; or the in-between state that, globally, society has found itself. The intent here is to embody questions from a Scottish ex-pat (myself) living and working in Aotearoa (New Zealand).</p>
<p>The painting represents a response to Scotland&#8217;s current situation with another Independence Referendum being touted, which is once again developing out of frustrations from the lack of governing autonomy as, increasingly, the Break-Up of Britain appears to be on the horizon. Here, we locate a sense of an assemblage within Scotland, its identity being undermined and reshaped beyond its control, struggling to maintain its &#8220;Europeanness&#8221;.</p>
<p>Filmed in a continuous, uncut shot, I draw attention to elements of the body as the painting comes to fruition. This, effectively, demonstrates that the body is a &#8220;mode of perception, [that] can contribute to increasingly rich understandings of human perception&#8221; (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B13">Lala and Kinsella 2011: 79</xref>). Throughout the running time are quotations, reflections, and illuminations that stem from this mixed approach of SPR and embodied practice.</p>
<p>This is in an effort to understand if meaning is generated through the practice or disseminated upon completion. The mix of sources range from Deleuze and Guattari, and their discussions of multiplicities, to filmmaker, poet, and author Margaret Tait whose poem &#8220;Elasticity&#8221; has poignancy given the current social, cultural, and political climate. Can we move on from the pandemic? Or will we return back to an unequal, fractured society?</p>
<p>Keywords: Screen Production Research, embodied Practice, Scotland, Aotearoa, Deleuze</p>
<p>Antisyzygy</p>
<p>&#8220;the culture of a nation-state and the culture of a stateless nation,</p>
<p> within both of which the people of Scotland live&#8221;</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B11">Gardiner 2006: 20</xref>)</p>
<p>Antisyzygy is the</p>
<p>&#8220;idea of duelling polarities within one entity&#8221;</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B14">Martin 2009: 84</xref>)</p>
<p>Living in Aotearoa (New Zealand) &#8211;</p>
<p>a different kind of in-between state, several identities and opposites in one entity</p>
<p>The name Kyle has been deterritorialised to Kale</p>
<p>Aotearoa is an assemblage, a toi waihanga,</p>
<p>&#8220;a multiplicity which is made up of many heterogeneous terms and</p>
<p>which establishes liaisons, relations between them,</p>
<p>across ages, sexes and reigns &#8211; different natures&#8221;</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B7">Deleuze and Parnet 1977: 69</xref>).</p>
<p>Deleuze and Guatarri discuss assemblages</p>
<p>&#8220;There are only multiplicities of multiplicities</p>
<p>forming a single <italic>assemblage</italic>&#8221;</p>
<p>(Deleuze and Guattari 1987: 39)</p>
<p>Scotland is an assemblage</p>
<p>Scottish</p>
<p>European</p>
<p>P&#257;keh&#257;</p>
<p>What is a <italic>British</italic> identity?</p>
<p>How was it <italic>assembled</italic>?</p>
<p>Steve Blandford writes:</p>
<p>British identity &#8220;was forged out of a sense</p>
<p>of isolation and an island fortress imagination&#8221; (2007: 9)</p>
<p>2020</p>
<p>Reshaped and reformed our understanding of isolation</p>
<p>And established new fortresses</p>
<p>Manuel DeLanda wrote that continental markets were assembling</p>
<p>With the &#8220;European Union being a prime example,</p>
<p>but this is still an unfinished historical task,</p>
<p>one that could fail if the interacting</p>
<p>&#8220;national markets cease to give rise</p>
<p>to an emergent whole.&#8221; (2016: 15).</p>
<p>This assemblage failed</p>
<p>Deleuze and Guattari wrote:</p>
<p>&#8220;A body without organs is what remains</p>
<p>when you take everything away&#8221; (1987: 176)</p>
<p>2021</p>
<p>Will more be taken away?</p>
<p>This canvas was a <italic>Body without Organs</italic>&#8230;</p>
<p>But what is it now?</p>
<p>In 1919, G. Gregory Smith understood assemblages</p>
<p>And antisyzygy</p>
<p>&#8220;Perhaps in the very combination of opposites [&#8230;]</p>
<p>we have a reflection of the contrasts which the Scot shows at every turn,</p>
<p>in his political and ecclesiastical history</p>
<p>&#8220;in his polemical restlessness, in his adaptability,</p>
<p>which is another way of saying that he has made</p>
<p>allowance for new conditions, in his practical judgement,</p>
<p>which is the admission that two sides</p>
<p>of the matter have been considered&#8221; (4).</p>
<p>Aotearoa/Scottish poet Sydney Goodsir Smith once wrote:</p>
<p>&#8220;And never the clock runs back,</p>
<p>The free days are owre;</p>
<p>&#8220;The world shrinks, we luik</p>
<p>Mair t&#8217;our maisters ilka hour &#8211;</p>
<p>&#8220;What yon lane boat I see</p>
<p>Daith an rebellion blind ma ee!&#8221; (1944)</p>
<p>2021 the year of the rebellion?</p>
<p>Do we come together?</p>
<p>Face <italic>oor maisters</italic>?</p>
<p>Where do we start?</p>
<p>Art</p>
<p>It challenges, argues, rebels against every <italic>maister</italic></p>
<p>&#8220;The essence of art is</p>
<p>nothing less than the conservation of human experience itself&#8221;</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B5">Crowther 2001: 7</xref>)</p>
<p>This experience must be expressed</p>
<p>We must use the 2020 <italic>body without organs</italic></p>
<p>Filmmaker, poet, author Margaret Tait once wrote:</p>
<p>&#8220;Think of the word, elastic.</p>
<p>The real elastic quality is the being able to spring back</p>
<p>to the original shape&#8221; (1959)</p>
<p>Should we spring back in 2021?</p>
<p>Or start a new assemblage?</p>
<p>ANTISYZYGY</p>
<p>Antisyzygy</p>
<p>The author declares that they have no competing interests.</p>
<p>References</p>
<p>Berkeley, L. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B1">2018</xref>) &#8220;Lights, Camera, Research: The Specificity of Research in Screen Production,&#8221; in C. Batty and S. Kerrigan (eds.) <italic>Screen Production Research: Creative Practice as Mode of Enquiry</italic>, Gewerbestrasse: Palgrave Macmillan, pp. 29&#8211;46</p>
<p>Blandford, S. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B2">2007</xref>) <italic>Film, Drama, and the Break-Up of Britain</italic>, Bristol: Intellect.</p>
<p>Crowther, P. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B5">2001</xref>) <italic>Art and Embodiment: From Aesthetics to Self-Consciousness</italic>, Oxford: Oxford University Press</p>
<p>DeLanda, M. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B6">2016</xref>) <italic>Assemblage Theory</italic>, Edinburgh: Edinburgh University Press</p>
<p>Deleuze, G. and Parnet, C. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B7">1977</xref>), <italic>Dialogues II</italic>, Paris: Flammarion</p>
<p>Guattari, G. and Guattari, F. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B10">1987</xref>), <italic>A Thousand Plateaus</italic>, London: Bloomsbury Academic</p>
<p>Gardiner, M. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B11">2006</xref>) <italic>From Trocchi to Trainspotting: Scottish Critical Theory Since 1960</italic>, Edinburgh: Edinburgh University Press</p>
<p>Park Lala, A. and Anne Kinsella, E. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B13">2011</xref>) &#8220;Embodiment in Research Practices: The Body in	Qualitative Research,&#8221; in J. Higgs, A. Titchen, D. Horsfall, and D. Bridges (eds.) <italic>Creative Spaces for Qualitative Researching: Living Research</italic>, Rotterdam: Sense	Publishers, pp. 77&#8211;86</p>
<p>Goodsir Smith, S. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B12">1944</xref>) &#8220;Largo,&#8221; in M. Lindsay and L. Duncan (eds.) <italic>The Edinburgh Book of Twentieth-Century Scottish Poetry</italic>, Edinburgh: Edinburgh University Press, 2005, pp. 324</p>
<p>Martin, M. R. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B14">2009</xref>) <italic>The Mighty Scot</italic>, New York: SUNY Press.</p>
<p>Smith, G. G. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B16">1919</xref>) <italic>Scottish Literature: Character &amp; Influence</italic>, London: Macmillan &amp; Co. Limited.</p>
<p>Tait, M. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B17">1959</xref>) &#8220;Elasticity,&#8221; in S. Neely (ed.) <italic>Margaret Tait: Poems, Stories, and Writings</italic>, Manchester: Carcanet Press Ltd, 2012, pp. 34</p>
<p>[09:13]</p>
<p><bold>MORE THAN ONE VOICE</bold></p>
<p>&#8220;illuminated&#8221; video article</p>
<p>based on</p>
<p><italic>Dreamvoice</italic></p>
<p>performance &#8211; sound installation</p>
<p>by</p>
<p>Ilona Krawczyk</p>
<p>with</p>
<p>Brice Catherin</p>
<p>Cristina Fuentes Antonazzi</p>
<p>David Velez</p>
<p>THE VOICE</p>
<p>&#8220;natural&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;authentic&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;open&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;free&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8230;</p>
<p><italic>I try to express it</italic></p>
<p>or&#8230;</p>
<p>I try to understand</p>
<p>what my voice expresses.</p>
<p>&#8220;The voice manifests the <italic>unique being</italic> of each human being, and his or her [their] spontaneous self-communication according to the rhythms of a sonorous relation&#8221;</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B4">Cavarero, 2005, 173</xref>).</p>
<p>In this sense, Cavarero&#8217;s <italic>vocal ontology of uniqueness</italic> opposes the Cartesian &#8220;mute voice of consciousness&#8221; (Ibid. 173), categories of universalism, and philosophy of voice that considers one kind of normalised and defined culturally vocal expression as &#8220;right&#8221;, &#8220;authentic&#8221;, &#8220;natural&#8221;, &#8230;</p>
<disp-quote>
<p>I can say something without words.</p>
<p>My voice will sing</p>
<p>My voice will say</p>
</disp-quote>
<p>[vocalisation]</p>
<p>Except for open throat traditional Eastern European vocal technique</p>
<p>specific to the country of my origin,</p>
<p>in this spontaneous self-communication,</p>
<p>I use Tahreer &#8211; a traditional Iranian singing technique and</p>
<p>traditional Jewish singing.</p>
<p>I have no evidence that they are a part of my cultural heritage.</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>Who is speaking?</italic></p>
<p><italic>Who is singing?</italic></p>
<p><italic>Where does the voice come from?</italic></p>
<p><italic>Is it me singing?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>Who is speaking,</p>
<p>who is singing?</p>
<p>Where does the voice</p>
<p>come from?</p>
<p>Is it me singing?</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>Why do I feel connected to something which is beyond me, which comes from the past, which I don&#8217;t understand? But there are those moments of unconsciousness that come out</italic>.</p>
<p><italic>Why? What? Who?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>Why do I feel</p>
<p>connected</p>
<p>to something</p>
<p>which is beyond me</p>
<p>which comes</p>
<p>from the past</p>
<p>which I don&#8217;t understand</p>
<p>But there are</p>
<p>those moments of</p>
<p>unconsciousness</p>
<p>that come out</p>
<p>Why?</p>
<p>What?</p>
<p>Who?</p>
<p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t know if it is you who is bringing about this voice or the voice that is bringing about you, and where the source of the sound is &#8211; in your mouth, [in] your chest, in your lungs, in your stomach, in your groin, or maybe in the room&#8217;s walls, ceiling, or maybe in distant celestial bodies, in the crystal spheres of the universe&#8221; (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B9">Flaszen, 2010, 149</xref>).</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>How many voices are we?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>How many voices are we?</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>Which voices we are using?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>Which voices we are using?</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>Do we want our voices?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>Do we want our voices?</p>
<disp-quote>
<p><italic>What is good technique, what is bad technique?</italic></p>
</disp-quote>
<p>What is good technique,</p>
<p>what is bad technique?</p>
<p>&#8220;Think of these sounds</p>
<p>that are usually considered &#8220;wrong&#8221;,</p>
<p>such as pseudomultiphonics,</p>
<p>parasite sounds, accidental changes of pitches. &#8230;</p>
<p>&#8230; Learn to control them,</p>
<p>to stabilise these so called &#8220;mistakes&#8221;.</p>
<p>Love them, dig into them,</p>
<p>shape them, transform them</p>
<p>gently and constantly (&#8230;) &#8230;</p>
<p>&#8230; Trust your sound, let it live the life it wants to live, just accompany it the best you can. Trust your instruments, your strings, your pipes, your vocal chords, they want to go a certain way, follow them, they know&#8221;.</p>
<p>(<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B3">Catherin, 2018, 19</xref>)</p>
<p>The voice &#8211; both as bodily <italic>event</italic> and as the <italic>exposition</italic> of that event &#8211; is the gesture which exhibits the relational uniqueness of being, which each time restages itself towards other (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B8">Di Matteo, 2015, 92</xref>).</p>
<p><fig><graphic xmlns:xlink="http://www.w3.org/1999/xlink" xlink:href="/article/id/7910/file/102037/"/></fig></p>
<p>MORE THAN ONE VOICE</p>
<p>&#8220;illuminated&#8221; video article</p>
<p>by Ilona Krawczyk with Brice Catherin,</p>
<p>Cristina Fuentes Antonazzi and David Velez.</p>
<p>Videography: Ben Spatz</p>
<p>CITED BOOKS</p>
<p>Catherin, B. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B3">2018</xref>). <italic>Symphonie pour une femme seule. Score?</italic></p>
<p>Cavarero, A. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B4">2005</xref>). <italic>For more than one voice: Toward a philosophy of vocal expression</italic>. Stanford University Press.</p>
<p>Di Matteo, P. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B8">2015</xref>). Performing the entre-deux: The capture of speech in (dis)embodied voices. In: K. Thomaidis, B. MacPherson (Eds.). <italic>Voice studies: Critical approaches to process, performance and experience</italic> (pp. 90&#8211;103). Routledge.</p>
<p>Flaszen, L. (<xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B9">2010</xref>). <italic>Grotowski &amp; company</italic>. Icarus.</p>
<p>CITED SONG</p>
<p><xref ref-type="bibr" rid="B15"><italic>Prituri se planinata</italic></xref>. Bulgarian folk song performed by Stefka Sabotinova.</p>
<p>Sourced from <italic><ext-link ext-link-type="uri" xmlns:xlink="http://www.w3.org/1999/xlink" xlink:href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=og4zO4fzsOU">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=og4zO4fzsOU</ext-link></italic></p>
<p>DREAMVOICE</p>
<p>performance &#8211; sound installation</p>
<p>performed and recorded 14.03.2019</p>
<p>in Studio 3 Patrick Stewart Building, University of Huddersfield</p>
<p>devised for Practice-as-Research on embodying voice in training and performance practice</p>
<p>conducted by Ilona Krawczyk at University of Huddersfield thanks to North of England Consortium for Arts and Humanities (NECAH).</p>
<p>[19:12]</p>
<p><fig><graphic xmlns:xlink="http://www.w3.org/1999/xlink" xlink:href="/article/id/7910/file/102038/"/></fig></p>
<p>It is in and through the revelation of my</p>
<p>being-as-object for the Other that I</p>
<p>must be able to apprehend the</p>
<p>presence of his being-as-subject.</p>
<p>Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
<p><bold>PREPARATION</bold></p>
<p><bold>BY CHARLOTTA GRIMFJORD CEDERBLAD</bold></p>
<p>I am preparing</p>
<p>I haven&#8217;t really rehearsed</p>
<p>I have written texts to perform</p>
<p>I have given myself tasks</p>
<p>I have prepared four costume changes</p>
<p>I have set up props and equipment for sound and live video</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t realize</p>
<p>that I accidently</p>
<p>have put the camera on recording</p>
<p>I have chosen music to play</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t decide until now</p>
<p>when I will play which music</p>
<p>The name of the performance is</p>
<p>If you look closely you will see me</p>
<p>The audience will enter</p>
<p>and leave the room</p>
<p>as they please during three hours</p>
<p>I will sit</p>
<p>with my back against the audience</p>
<p>They will only see my face</p>
<p>as a big live projection on the wall</p>
<p>[Lyrics to song:]</p>
<p>Smile though your heart is aching</p>
<p>Smile even though it&#8217;s breaking</p>
<p>When there are clouds in the sky, you&#8217;ll get by</p>
<p>If you smile through the fear and sorrow</p>
<p>Smile and maybe tomorrow</p>
<p>You&#8217;ll see the sun come shining through</p>
<p>For you</p>
<p>Light up your face with gladness</p>
<p>Hide every trace of sadness</p>
<p>Although a tear may be ever so near</p>
<disp-quote>
<p>Smile though your heart is aching</p>
<p>Smile even though it&#8217;s breaking</p>
<p>When there are clouds in the sky, you&#8217;ll get by</p>
<p>If you smile through the fear and sorrow</p>
<p>Smile and maybe tomorrow</p>
<p>You&#8217;ll see the sun come shining through</p>
<p>For you</p>
<p>Light up your face with gladness</p>
<p>Hide every trace of sadness</p>
<p>Although a tear may be ever so near</p>
</disp-quote>
<p>&#8230;if I tremble at the slightest noise, if</p>
<p>each creak announces to me a look,</p>
<p>this is because I am already in the state</p>
<p>of being-looked-at.</p>
<p>Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
<p>[Lyrics to song:]</p>
<p>That&#8217;s the time you must keep on trying</p>
<p>Smile, what&#8217;s the use of crying</p>
<p>You&#8217;ll find that life is still worthwhile</p>
<p>If you just smile</p>
<disp-quote>
<p>That&#8217;s the time you must keep on trying</p>
<p>Smile, what&#8217;s the use of crying</p>
<p>You&#8217;ll find that life is still worthwhile</p>
<p>If you just smile</p>
</disp-quote>
<p>Perhaps it is impossible to understand</p>
<p>one&#8217;s own face. People who live in</p>
<p>society have learned how to see</p>
<p>themselves in mirrors as they appear to</p>
<p>their friends.</p>
<p>Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
<p>[Charlotta, soundchecking:]</p>
<disp-quote>
<p>Mother</p>
<p>Babababa</p>
<p>Bababa</p>
<p>Babababa baba bababa</p>
</disp-quote>
<p>What happens soon is that I stop the</p>
<p>recording, again by accident</p>
<p>I find the recording in my camera about</p>
<p>two months later</p>
<p>It&#8217;s not until then I understand that</p>
<p>these ten minutes of preparing have</p>
<p>been recorded</p>
<p>The whole preparation lasted for</p>
<p>several hours</p>
<p>In order to make myself recognized by</p>
<p>the Other, I must risk my own life.</p>
<p>Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
<p>PREPARATION</p>
<p>The recording took place at 13festivalen,</p>
<p>Konstepidemin in G&#246;teborg, Sweden 2020-01-04</p>
<p>With and edited by:</p>
<p>Charlotta Grimfjord Cederblad</p>
<p>Recorded by Canon:</p>
<p>LEGRIA HF200</p>
<p>Music heard in the video:</p>
<p>September Sun by Kodomo</p>
<p>Aithos by Yair Etziony</p>
<p>Helix by Yair Etziony</p>
<p>Smile by Charlie Chaplin performed by Nat King Cole</p>
<p>Imperium Romanum by Yair Etziony</p>
<p>Pool by Pistol Disco</p>
<p>More by Nils Frahm</p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>Being and nothingness by Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
<p>Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre</p>
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<title>Competing Interests</title>
<p>The authors have no competing interests to declare.</p>
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